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L&W3: I'm Staying
26 June 2009
It’s easy to deny ourselves of what hurt us than to admit it. As long as it is denied, it is beyond truth. And as long as it remains buried, things can be pretended as okay – even if the inside is just a volcano waiting to erupt.
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A friend of mine told me that being alike makes understanding of our other half better than we would understand ourselves. And each moment would feel like a walk down ‘self-realization’ road – a self-made bitch slap that stings your cheeks for days! He was damn right about it.
Even through all the bitch slaps, I could not have stopped myself from falling in love with him. I used to pray, for many nights, to be granted one of the many wishes that pass through my head everyday. One of them is to meet me with someone that is exactly as I am in almost every aspect because then he would know what would make me happy and how to do it. To finally have my prayers answered were exhilarating and also a step towards realization. Allah is Almighty and He is the only one that would be the granter of our wishes.
Every wish would not be granted to the dot. If there is, then the challenge would not be enough to make us grateful, would not be big for us to understand the work of Allah s.w.t.. Even this wish has its flaws and holes. Many would expect imperfections to downgrade, but here, the imperfections would stay unrevealed. It is merely a wake up call to me, a realization, and another road with the many junctions to complete my other wishes.
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Things would be rough, things would be crazy. At times, it could be unbearable. But we have given up so easily in the past, with a fight we thought worth it, with our dignity crushed to the core, but we know deep inside, it was not enough – none of the sacrifices were enough because we could have done better. We took the easy way out – to flee and be free.
Now I’m going to stay and surrender to you – to a fate that I think entwined us. I do not want to let go, I couldn’t let go. You make me a better person, make me myself. And that, with many other reasons, is why I love you.
You could ask me to leave, but I’ll never be far – because I promised I’ll stay.
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