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26 April 2009
Two weeks ago I woke up realizing I am LOST, lost in a world that I had no control over, living on auto-pilot mode so that I would not feel the pressure that life presented to me. Assignments, tests, quizzes and presentations for almost every single day since middle march to middle April. Due to MY STUDIES, SOME blame me for neglecting them, SOME even took advantage of the condition I was in and some were my life-saver.
If anyone were paying attention, my love life was on hiatus for some time (can be seen through the stories of Arii) and it was already broken to a point of no return. Childish as he may be of it, I could not turn my head ignorantly as he is. I take the blame for the ruined relationship – I am a cold, heartless bitch during those times when I have already made up my mind that the relationship was doomed to fail. I do not miss him through out the entire time since I started being busy and things were rocky. Even now, I don’t miss him at all. All attempts and words of love fall on deaf ear and I begin to accept that I am purely not ready for a relationship, yet.
I had more than a full month of drama; suicidal attempts, fighting with friends and Nazrin, sudden high fevers, lost in KL more than a couple of times, meeting with Fidzel, Sunburst, dealing with delusional guy and also new admirers, studies going havoc all of a sudden, meeting up with old friends and so on. And now, I am in my old home in KL where really bad memories of being neglected and the starting of my independent strike fill my head.
I currently love the place where I am in – in love, love by and yet, I am independently single. Believe it or not, I am single – and stalked by Nazrin. I finally feel like I have a life outside my cage. I do not dare to stray far from the space that I know but at the same time I’m expanding it. I am finally me and I am jolly well proud of it.
By the way, I haven’t watched anything, on cinema screen, for this semester - believe it or not? Nazrin were overtly protective at one point of time. I could not step out of the ‘comfort zone’ he built around me – thus no crowds or even being around places he deemed ‘dangerous’ aka the city.
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That was how it was about a month ago. Some things have taken a different turn now. Some things happened beyond my own believe. Some left, some stayed. And exams are totally over! (Screams *(:*)
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